She was right…
I once got yelled at… Ooooh it was a rip the bandaid off moment. She was right, I was wrong and it seemed insignificant to me but it was big to her. It took me less than a minute to know I was wrong, and she drove off before I could affirm her position… but I would have!
I was rushing to get out of the Parking lot, I can’t even pretend there was a significant reason I was rushing other than being in a busy parking lot is uncomfortable. I exited the bog box store and to my right saw a bunch of carts haphazardly pushed up against the side of the entrance, - great! I’ll do that too! It’s quicker for the cart collectors and me … and so I did, I tucked my cart into someone else’s missplaced cart and off I went. (they say misery loves company but so does naughtiness and laziness and indugence … want to share some cake with me?)
Before I even crossed the intersection just outside the exit - she rolled by and yelled “That’s not where the cart goes!!!” she yelled it twice - looking right at me with complete disgust, as she drove away shaking her head. Some days I hate being human :)
Boy oh boy - I felt the fire rise with in me.. this no longer felt insignificant… I was ready to load my chamber full of excuses and then _ I had nothing but blanks. Friganannies, she was correct. Crap-a-ronnies - I was being LAZY. She caught me.
BUT she was rude… and if she wasn't, I probably would just keep on doing it - why do we learn by pain? Who wrote that into our story? Can we be done with that? I will not walk in the complete opposite direction - I will go the distance needed - to put that darn cart in the darn buggy corral.
I hypothesized that her child was probably a cart chauffeur and complained of people like me when they came home from work every evening. She probably knew those employees have to walk all over that parking lot- maybe even all over the power centre to corall the wayward buggies that are ripped away from their original home. I can feel the excuses welling up in me RIGHT THIS VERY MINUTE - but no -I let go of needing to be right … go on, get out of here you - prideful ego!
Just put the darn cart back and be thankful for the lesson… in fact just put everything back where you found it and for the love of Mary put the cap’s back on your paint tubes properly EVEN if we all know the lid/cap design SUCKS!
I am so glad to be here at this time, to hold my own humanity and look at the good and the bad in me… but it’s hard so I will be gentle with myself and I will hold myself accountable as I dissolve the period - looking inside and outside myself to find what is at my core.